The shattered image - ch 14: The point of no return

The day ended fairly slow... I dazed upon the thoughts Aya had planted in my head... She had let the subject be, and not dug into it further. At lunch no one had brought up my mysterious friend - whom I hadn't caught a glimpse of since then.
I began to wish for my memories back, so everything wasn't so damn confusing...
I couldn't decide if my curiosity or fear would win this battle of whether or not to trying remember my past.
"Ouch..."
Great. I had walked with the head in the clouds not paying attention - again...
"excuse me.." I mumbled still looking at the ground. I couldn't dare look up
"it's okay"
I looked up. There he stood. The mysterious guy whom very well could belong to Japans most furious gang or the wickedest band... I liked the idea of him being in a band the best. Then I wouldn't need to deal with a delinquent...
Now that I had a closer look to him, I could see his ears which was filled with piercings. He had one in the eyebrow as well. Wow...
"Haruka?" He looked at me with a familiar face, like we had known each other for ages.
"Wouldn't have thought this should be were I met you again" he said.
I was at lost. Should I admit to him that I had amnesia? But I really didn't know yet if I wanted to know anything past my 10th birthday... A sudden glimpse flashed before my eyes. A middle class neighborhood, a playground surrounded by houses, a nice path with trees surrounded me. A boy stood before me, a big smile to his lips as he was drenched wet... I looked down at my self and realized it was pounding down.
As fast as it had come just as fast it went by leaving me in a daze followed by a sick headache struck like lightning.
"I...I have to go.. Don't.. feel so good"
The next thing I knew the world before my eyes crumbled. slowly turning black.
My last thought before the darkness encountered me and my consciousness slipped was "Oh god not again"

The shattered image - Ch 13: In denial

A cold breeze hit my face - it seemed as summer had yet to come. I was lost yet again in my own thought. Something about that guy... Even though he was a complete stranger, something familiar was around him. As if I used to know him well..
"Haruka, did you know that guy? He greeted you by your first name, didn´t he?" Aya looked at me confused, probably because my expression must haven been as equal confused.
At any other time, she would have grabbed the chance of teasing because.. well it was Aya we were talking about after all, but I guess she picked up the awkward silence around me. I could imagine, judging from her tone, that she had already schemed several possible reasons as of why his presence had caught me off guard. (Though I tended to loose my mind to my thoughts all the time...)
I smiled at her, trying to hold back my grinning, it was kinda fun, watching her thinking he was some sort of delinquent I would have collided with in the past.
"I know what you´re thinking, and no I don't know him. At least I don't think I do... If so - I can't remember him"
"He seemed to know you" said Isumi whom had suddenly spoken. It was always a bit of a shock when she opened her mouth. I was so used to she never really joined in on conversation. She always just listened.
"Yeah.. I'm kinda confused by that." I would acknowledge. I knew I wouldn't come any closer to an answer by thinking about it. I just couldn't figure it out.
"Your boyfriend is here" I was looking in the direction Aya had nodded toward, and when I saw whom she had meant I gave her a stare.
"Really? We're just friends"
"Doesn't seem like he want to stay that way Haruka" Aya blinked at me, and Isumi giggled a little.
Great,,,
"Can I join in on the party?" Daisuke had awfully quick come to join in on our little meeting.
"I think you may have a rival Kato-kun" Aya had put a playful tune on Daisukes last name. In japan it wasn't uncommon to call each other by last names. Actually it was odd calling people by their first names if you weren't close.
Daisuke's expression was mixed, shocked and confused. I didn't know how I should take that so I turned toward Aya and gave her another stare. Seriosuly.. She really was the most mischievous person I would ever had met. Yet she did it out of love, I knew that much.
"Rival?" Daisuke finally said. He probably tried to clear up what ever puzzle Aya had left in his mind. "It's nothing, Aya is just more playful than ever".
Isumi giggled but stopped as soon as she remembered Daisuke was there. She was so shy it was cute...
"Haruka had an encounter in the hall-way" Aya said with a smirk.
Before Daisuke could question me further the bell rang and yet another class started.
"Guess you wont find out till lunch huh?" Aya clearly had waaaay too much fun with this.
As we walked, and left Daisuke behind in complete wonder, Isumi began to feel a little sorry for the guy. "Poor Kato-san..." I didn't really get what was to feel sorry about though. It was not like Daisuke liked me or any thing...
"Haruka, either you're a complete airhead or in denial" Aya had her arm placed back at her head, walking while looking slightly up, I swear sometimes she could go for being a dude.
"What do you mean?" I couldn't really see what she meant by that, fore surely SURELY there wasn't anything between me and Daisuke.
"Either you're oblivious to Kato-san's pretty obvious feelings or you're trying not to pick up on them"
There it was. The bomb. The teasing and suggestions. Now she had put them out clear.
"I think so too" Isumi added. What even Isumi thought so?!

But I couldn't believe it. I wouldn't believe it. Mostly because I knew that it was pretty big for me and my unstable mind to actually make friends. But to add a boyfriend to my life's biggest trail would be impossible. So I wished so dearly it wasn't true...
 But how could I ever say that to them?

The shattered image - ch 12: Another clue

The period ended somewhat peacefully, even though both Yamamoto-san had got quite the shock from my outburst. What was that anyway? Since when did I speak my mind?

Clearly both Aya and Isumi was surprised. I guess it doesn't lie within my personality to actually stand up for myself, let alone anyone else.

"Are you okay?" Aya looked at my with concerned eyes. It was not that the incident actually had shaken me that much, I guess I was on my way to become more sure of myself. I was however shaken. The image from just after seeing Yamamoto-san's furious face had really got under my skin. 

Even though it had been blurry and had a complete lack of actually context, it had however held some deep emotions. Intense fear had washed over my body - as in "Im-scared-for-my-life-kind-of-fear".

That was so weird... I recalled Daisukes past, and remembered just how awful it had been.. I was wise not to dig further into my mind - because I clearly didn't want to remember something as horrible as that!

"HARUKA!" Aya had stepped in front of me, looking rather scared for mt well-being now. I guess I lost track of time and buried myself into thoughts.

"Sorry! I was just thinking. I am totally fine! I was just surprised by my own sudden outburst, hehe" I winked and smiled like nothing specific was on my mind.

"Good... It's pretty often you completely forget your surroundings. Is something bothering you?"

She was clearly concerned and Isumi seemed to listen with a close ear. Was I really that zombie-ish? "Mom's birthday is comming up. I have been twisting my mind back and forth but I REALLY can't figure out what to give her!" I seemed pretty pathetic for telling such a lie, who in their right mind would seem to loose track of time and surroundings, even freeze in arguments, over their mothers birthday... Now that I thought about it, I kinda wished I could go back in time.. dammit I seemed lame!

Aya and Isumi seemed to buy it though - either they figured out I was lieing in knew I wasn't in a mood to talk about my problems, or they just believed me... I wished it was the second choice, but judging from their faces, it was rather the first option. Dammit.

We continue walking down the school halls, on our way down stairs to catch some fresh air before 2. period started. I threw my worries aside and started join in on Isumi and Aya's conversation and not long after it seemed like everything was ever so fine.

On our way outside a person passed my left side. A guy - at least 190 cm tall - wild bleached hair with blue stripes in it. Ripped black jeans with chains attached to them, a black t-shirt with print of an angle in darkness, black eyeliner around his eyes.

What a dude..

"Haruka" he said as he passed by. What? Did he just say my name? 

I turned around, he kept looking straight so I couldn't get a second look on his face. Further and Further he walked in our opposite direction. Who the heck was that?